xxSurayaroses’ blog

If only you knew how much I love you.

God, this hurts so much

Thank You Dahnia for the advice.

I think i've got my vengence and revenge today.
Although not exactly the way I wanted.
But let's hope he realizes what he has done to me . :)

Maybe we were meant to be .... I guess.

But who knows.
Maybe not, maybe. Just maybe...

Maybe my illusions are taking me somewhere that I'm not suppose to .

Maybe.... I should learn to let go.

I'm so tired,
Too tired
Of all this effing crazy thing.
So I've decided I want to back out of it.
I need to put an end to this.
If you're not willing to then I will.

So much has to be said. So many things playing in my head.

I wonder when will I ever find the time to write it all out here? When can I actually let it all out?
So much anger. So much sadness. So much guilt. So much HAPPINESS.

When will I eventually write it all down? 

I'm not one of those people who just say nothing about it at all. I need to say something.
I need to talk about it. So let's talk already.

nothing.

Are you trying to erase me from your life?
What's playing on your mind?
What's wrong with you?
I don't want to lose you as a friend ever.
But do you feel the same way?

Maybe you think that I'm no longer needed in your life because you've got everything already. Everything you've ever wanted. So that leaves me, am I disturbing your life? I supported you through the bad times and good times.
But if you're willing to throw all that away then its fine with me. So what you don't value friendship at all.
I know I have made my mistakes as well but I thought we put that behind a long time ago.

I don't know what's wrong with you really.

Or is it just me? Is my mind playing tricks on me? Am I being mad for absolute no reason?
Let's just say if dia wants to terminate this friendship then I am very sad.

Oh MR.A . :)
You bring me some sort of happiness inside of me. :D
Even if it's just a crush, i don't care.

I like you and I want to LIKE someone to keep me busy.

I'm your number one stalker baby.
Even if you don't know I exist. It does not matter at all.
I just wanna be crushing on you. You are my latest addiction, obsession.

Ahhh~ :)

I wish I meant something to you. 

And now you wish that you meant something
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else
And now you wish that you met someone.

Oh and something I just had to say;

What's wrong if I like to open up my life to the world?
What's wrong with telling ?
You have no right to tell me all that crap,
Seriously before you start judging me,
Please go tell your girlfriend first.
She has a way more 'social internet life' compared to me.
pffft . yes im angry so what?
Yes, you won't know im mad . Because I won't tell you.
I won't tell you >edward<