42 posts from 2008

I found out the reason why akmal stopped talking to me. Or at least, rarely does talk to me.
He has a girlfriend. Oh, typical.
Once someone has a girlfriend or boyfriend. they forget their friends. im not hating here..
Just saying. even if i had a boyfriend, i wouldnt ever forget my friends. I'd still talk to them.There's nothing wrong right?
Sure you can get jealous. But I just don't mind if my boyfriend goes to talk to other girls.
Because I talk to other guys too. One of my best friends is a guy.

All you need is trust.
 and find the balance.

Okay, So I havent been here in ages.
There is so much to be said.

first off... I HAD a boyfriend. but we broke up a couple weeks after getting together

hell, its not even long enough to be called a relationship. Sure, I loved him. I cried.
The reason why it ended was my fault. Everything is my fault. I can't tell here what happened. But..
I am so thankful to the fact that he sitll wants to be friends with me. :)  He is such an amazing guy
and i wouldn't want to lose a friend like him . EVEERR.

second.
I have a cat. who is my best friend right now. He's my everything , and i love him .

Let us hear the weirdest song from your music library.
Submitted by Hydranokaori.

Mindless Self Indulgence- Shut Me Up

Mindless Self Indulgence

First off, i apologize because i havent really been up much to vox nowdays.
It's just that I lost my concentration easily.It's like a moment i am certain on what to write, and suddenly when I'm actually on the screen typing I just forget!its crazy honestly.
Theres alot of things I am glad about.
Number one is that I am now still in contact with Akmal, after about a year of not talking to him, I finally got my guts and went to him a talk.
I apologized because I had been rather cold to him last year..
and I regret ever doing so.because i thought it was him who backstabbed me.
i finally found out it was that certain someone whom I know.I dont wanna mention her name or anything.
but yeah, it wasnt him.

Something came up.crap.
but here you go!
Okay, I said im gonna put up a review up here and here it goes.
:) enjoy,

****credits for the photos
to :: akimoto and steph from the avril lavigne malaysian fanclub.

Okay, i went there with this unknown person whom i am suppous to shut up and not tell who i went with,lol.
she finished her work around 5 something.,and i was hell of paranoid!
number 1 because i had to pick up the tix at the stadium itself.
i was so nervous cause the clock was showing 6 and she still hadn't arrived yet!
I had to go to go with her cause i got no transport.x.x
i waaaaaaaaaant idy to come!:''(
but he cant go with me, instead i went with her instead.
She arrived at my house around 6.25-ish.I was damn worried.and you could tell it was written all over my face!XD
she went up and took a shower..as i .. wait.
:/

sooon, we were on our way already.We rushed to the stadium,
and shock horror!!the jam was incredible!WAAAAAAAAAAAA..
PLUS it was starting to rain.
as we battle through the jam.
suddenly... HER LEG STARTS TO CRAMP..
and im like..ohh shiaat, what if something happens to her?what if she passes out or something?(coz she was sick too).
so i had to squeeze my self to the back part of the car and grabbed the medicen and gave it to her.after battling one hours of jam.
we finally reached the stadium.she struggles to find parking as parking was crazy tht day.
we eventually found one.But she decided to drop me off at the stadium first because we were both worried if the tickets was still there or not.
So i ran out of the car.
RUNNING IN THE RAIN.
i rushed to the hotlink booth.and asked the guy..
"Wheres the hitz.fm cruisers?"
He pointed to the back of me.
I turned..
and to my horror.. NO ONE WAS THERE..waaa.
"but they've gone somewhere else already.its closed already.."
the guy told me..
i was pale,in the shivering coldness,rain was pouring all over me.
what else could go wrong now?!
"where are they now?"
i asked.
he said..
"I dont know...maybe inside already."
I THINK MY HEART JUST STOPPED.
"Please..sir..help me!I won the tix.."
I said something like that..Yup, i was begging.And i felt like crying at some point..
suddenly another hotlink personal comes to me.and ask me.."whats wrong?"
then the other guy explained to him..
Then he said..
"Oh, you won the tickets is iit?"
I nodded...
"You see that guy over there...wearing that T-shirt?"
he was practically pointing at a crowd of people ALL WEARING T-SHIRTS.
so i asked him to show me who is who.
and so he did.I was finding the right guy while SHE was finding a parking.
Anyway,after saying a triple extra thank you to the guy i called HER. and she said she was on her way up here.
So i waited..
in the rain. but i didn't care! because every concert ive been to its always raining!so you kinda get used to it.

we went in and choose the left side of the yellow zone place.
the clocked showed 8.15 mins..
about another hour to go then..
at 8,50-ish the opening act began.
and it was that guy who won the contest thing singing maroon 5's - this love.
surprisingly he only sang one song!haha,
so much for the so called 'opening act'.

then ...
AVRIL CAME!!!!
she opened with the song Girlfriend!!After singing along to HAY HAY YEWW YEWW I DONT LIKE UR GIRLFRIEND!
she sang.. I Can Do Better. which i love alot.
it was a pity that she didnt say the word shitt in the song.
because if mcr could swear that day,,why not avvey?
lol, anyways.
then she talked to the crowd..saying how she thanks everyone for coming her to her concert..
after that..
she sang COMPLICATED!!!
she was so cute that night wearing a tight black pants.tights and a cute black top(which i know is from her clothing line 'Abbey Dawn' cause ive always wanted that black top.haha)
who said shes sexay huh?shes not!bangang!

after that she went backstage for a little while a changed her clothes to this white top.
which looks ok.but i preffered the black one.lol

then she sang 'MY HAPPY ENDING'.
then for the next song avey said..
"this song..if for you guys"
she sang..IM WITH YOUU!!
I Always Get What I Want [We high and jumping]
.Best Damn Dance Break (Dancer dancing)
so yeah..
after that she went backstage again. XD

soon.,..came out a PINK GRAND PIANO.
and i was liekk.. ok...guitar pink i can accept..drums pink i can accept also..
BUT A PIANO IN HOT PINK IS VERY VERY WEIRD!
she sang these songs..(but they cut short a bit of the songs..)
When Your Gone.
Innocence ( i nearly cried on this one)
and
Don't Tell Me (where she plays guitar)

then..
HOT.
LOSING GRIP!!! (omng....i lvee that song)
and suddenly the stage went dark again..
o.O
suddenly a song played at the screen!
It was a video montage of every avril video together with the song BAD REPUTATION originally by Joan Jett!except. of course Avril covered the song.
.Everything Back But You (Jumping/Happy/Exciting/Running/Introduce herBand)
Runaway (Avril On Pink Drums.)
The Best Damn Thing (Play with us"Let me hear u say hey hey hey" x4 times/Give me an A-V-R-I-L x3 times)
I Don't Have To Try (She ask "Who wear the Pants?"We answer her"I wear the Pants.")LOL

LAST SET!!

they changed the back drop from THE BEST DAMN THING skull to the MY WORLD STAR backdrop, (in other words..the star sign you see in the video LOSING GRIP at the back).
then..we sang the song..
that ive been dying to hear her sing live..
HE WASN'T!! 8D
She Playing with us "Shhh"& "Lound" x5 times[She is cute!] for this song!
out of all the songs played during the concert this one totally was AWESOME!

then came..Girlfriend(Remix) (Dancer Dancing/She Rapping A Part of song)
i give kudos to her back up singers/dancers!they are amazing!
and if your wondering, yeah they are the same girls like in the GIRLFRIEND video.
then,.the closing...
it was the song..
SKATER BOY!!wohooo.

ok.lets sum it all up.
1.Shes an awesome singer and i apologiez for ever doubting her singing skills, she has clearly improved.and if anyone says she is a bad singer i will kick ur a** because its NOT TRUE!
2.the crowd.was... boooring.they should have been more hyper.but i think its the rain that made them kinda tired.
3.I CANT BELIEVE SHE COVERED THE SONG BAD REPUTATION!!
because I LOVE THAT SONG!
haha,

shes awesome.the end.
and cute.
too cute.

Something came up.crap.
but here you go!
Okay, I said im gonna put up a review up here and here it goes.
:) enjoy,

****credits for the photos
to :: akimoto and steph from the avril lavigne malaysian fanclub.

Okay, i went there with this unknown person whom i am suppous to shut up and not tell who i went with,lol.
she finished her work around 5 something.,and i was hell of paranoid!
number 1 because i had to pick up the tix at the stadium itself.
i was so nervous cause the clock was showing 6 and she still hadn't arrived yet!
I had to go to go with her cause i got no transport.x.x
i waaaaaaaaaant idy to come!:''(
but he cant go with me, instead i went with her instead.
She arrived at my house around 6.25-ish.I was damn worried.and you could tell it was written all over my face!XD
she went up and took a shower..as i .. wait.
:/

sooon, we were on our way already.We rushed to the stadium,
and shock horror!!the jam was incredible!WAAAAAAAAAAAA..
PLUS it was starting to rain.
as we battle through the jam.
suddenly... HER LEG STARTS TO CRAMP..
and im like..ohh shiaat, what if something happens to her?what if she passes out or something?(coz she was sick too).
so i had to squeeze my self to the back part of the car and grabbed the medicen and gave it to her.after battling one hours of jam.
we finally reached the stadium.she struggles to find parking as parking was crazy tht day.
we eventually found one.But she decided to drop me off at the stadium first because we were both worried if the tickets was still there or not.
So i ran out of the car.
RUNNING IN THE RAIN.
i rushed to the hotlink booth.and asked the guy..
"Wheres the hitz.fm cruisers?"
He pointed to the back of me.
I turned..
and to my horror.. NO ONE WAS THERE..waaa.
"but they've gone somewhere else already.its closed already.."
the guy told me..
i was pale,in the shivering coldness,rain was pouring all over me.
what else could go wrong now?!
"where are they now?"
i asked.
he said..
"I dont know...maybe inside already."
I THINK MY HEART JUST STOPPED.
"Please..sir..help me!I won the tix.."
I said something like that..Yup, i was begging.And i felt like crying at some point..
suddenly another hotlink personal comes to me.and ask me.."whats wrong?"
then the other guy explained to him..
Then he said..
"Oh, you won the tickets is iit?"
I nodded...
"You see that guy over there...wearing that T-shirt?"
he was practically pointing at a crowd of people ALL WEARING T-SHIRTS.
so i asked him to show me who is who.
and so he did.I was finding the right guy while SHE was finding a parking.
Anyway,after saying a triple extra thank you to the guy i called HER. and she said she was on her way up here.
So i waited..
in the rain. but i didn't care! because every concert ive been to its always raining!so you kinda get used to it.

we went in and choose the left side of the yellow zone place.
the clocked showed 8.15 mins..
about another hour to go then..
at 8,50-ish the opening act began.
and it was that guy who won the contest thing singing maroon 5's - this love.
surprisingly he only sang one song!haha,
so much for the so called 'opening act'.

then ...
AVRIL CAME!!!!
she opened with the song Girlfriend!!After singing along to HAY HAY YEWW YEWW I DONT LIKE UR GIRLFRIEND!
she sang.. I Can Do Better. which i love alot.
it was a pity that she didnt say the word shitt in the song.
because if mcr could swear that day,,why not avvey?
lol, anyways.
then she talked to the crowd..saying how she thanks everyone for coming her to her concert..
after that..
she sang COMPLICATED!!!
she was so cute that night wearing a tight black pants.tights and a cute black top(which i know is from her clothing line 'Abbey Dawn' cause ive always wanted that black top.haha)
who said shes sexay huh?shes not!bangang!

after that she went backstage for a little while a changed her clothes to this white top.
which looks ok.but i preffered the black one.lol

then she sang 'MY HAPPY ENDING'.
then for the next song avey said..
"this song..if for you guys"
she sang..IM WITH YOUU!!
I Always Get What I Want [We high and jumping]
.Best Damn Dance Break (Dancer dancing)
so yeah..
after that she went backstage again. XD

soon.,..came out a PINK GRAND PIANO.
and i was liekk.. ok...guitar pink i can accept..drums pink i can accept also..
BUT A PIANO IN HOT PINK IS VERY VERY WEIRD!
she sang these songs..(but they cut short a bit of the songs..)
When Your Gone.
Innocence ( i nearly cried on this one)
and
Don't Tell Me (where she plays guitar)

then..
HOT.
LOSING GRIP!!! (omng....i lvee that song)
and suddenly the stage went dark again..
o.O
suddenly a song played at the screen!
It was a video montage of every avril video together with the song BAD REPUTATION originally by Joan Jett!except. of course Avril covered the song.
.Everything Back But You (Jumping/Happy/Exciting/Running/Introduce herBand)
Runaway (Avril On Pink Drums.)
The Best Damn Thing (Play with us"Let me hear u say hey hey hey" x4 times/Give me an A-V-R-I-L x3 times)
I Don't Have To Try (She ask "Who wear the Pants?"We answer her"I wear the Pants.")LOL

LAST SET!!

they changed the back drop from THE BEST DAMN THING skull to the MY WORLD STAR backdrop, (in other words..the star sign you see in the video LOSING GRIP at the back).
then..we sang the song..
that ive been dying to hear her sing live..
HE WASN'T!! 8D
She Playing with us "Shhh"& "Lound" x5 times[She is cute!] for this song!
out of all the songs played during the concert this one totally was AWESOME!

then came..Girlfriend(Remix) (Dancer Dancing/She Rapping A Part of song)
i give kudos to her back up singers/dancers!they are amazing!
and if your wondering, yeah they are the same girls like in the GIRLFRIEND video.
then,.the closing...
it was the song..
SKATER BOY!!wohooo.

ok.lets sum it all up.
1.Shes an awesome singer and i apologiez for ever doubting her singing skills, she has clearly improved.and if anyone says she is a bad singer i will kick ur a** because its NOT TRUE!
2.the crowd.was... boooring.they should have been more hyper.but i think its the rain that made them kinda tired.
3.I CANT BELIEVE SHE COVERED THE SONG BAD REPUTATION!!
because I LOVE THAT SONG!
haha,

shes awesome.the end.
and cute.
too cute.

Thank You ALLAH for giving me this opportunity to see Avril Lavigne.
Thank YOU hitz.fm for giving me the tickets.
Now All i need is a partner.
desperately.
i only have one day to find a partner.
gawsh 

Heh, sorry for the lack of update.
I guess ive been busy with blogger!PLUS, my cat just cant sit still.I NEED to keep an eye on him, if not he'll cause chaos.
lol.
So, mama told me that since i maybe not gonna go see Av, she said, she'll try to persuade abah to drive to the stadium so i can buy some t-shirts or maybe some merch or stuff like that.I guess, thats the closest i will ever get,.
Now i really doubt i am going.*sigh* luck is never with me when i need it.After spending God knows how much ringgit alone on the contests, i finally didn't get anything out of it.Sometimes i think...is there a conspiracy against me? maybe its my imagination. Honestly, during Daughtry's concert Dahnia and amirul managed to sneak in just fine and i had to pay rm100. MCR's concert (which i am glad i managed to go) i regretted not able to meet them a the hotel.But that wasn't anyones fault.Because Abah was really ill and i understand i still think its a miracle that i managed to go after all that drama and abah being ill.So i guess it's confirmed yeah?Im not gonna see Av.
Its okay, i mean, im THAT much of a die hard fan.Although i surprise myself after getting 1890 points for the hotlink contest.I didn't know i knew so much about her!I only realized that now..loool.

What I hope and pray is that when Paramore comes to Malaysia..I'll be able to go..
and hopefully, I saving for front row tickets...

p/s: isn't this the time where us kids/teens think on how much we want to grow up and take a part time job so we can earn money to buy things that we have always wanted?because i do feel that way.
anyone wants a 14 year old to work?hey, im right here!

ah.im not saying i give up, but im near to that.
*yawns* id better get to bed...
It's 10.40pm and theres school tomorrow.results coming out soon too.
sounds like a hell of fun for me.
btw, im glad Dahnia ajak pergi BBQ this saturday.
At least i have something to keep my mind off av.

im.not.complaining.
period

Hook Me Up - The Veronicas

Long day yesterday, but it was fun. :]
will put in full details later.'
but for now, aidi is here